Motherhood, parenting, raising, leading.....What does being a parent mean to you? Yes, you become a parent when they pull that baby out the old fashioned way or you choose to have a child join your family. However they arrive, you gain the title "Parent". What does this really mean though. I have gone through the good, the bad and the ugly with all four of my offspring. We have fallen and knocked out teeth, received multiple stitches and casts, three of my curtain climbers have gone under the knife and let's not start on the whole bodily fluid/solid events. With all of this happening in my life, one might say I am always cool as a cucumber. This has all started to change with the last little turkey. I now am a proud reader of "Raising the spirited child" She cried, a lot, she was needy, not self-soothing, and now, as a "spirited three year old, has a mouth like a truck driver, knows exactly how to piss off her sister and not get caught, is a biter, a hitter, hides favorite things, and is frickin' funny as hell! It's so hard to be mad at her!
My daughter has also had mediocre health the past year or so and we have undergone a bazillion tests with no end in sight. I'm not worried, I don't think there is anything life-threatening going on, but wow, it has rattled me silly. I have started to second guess my pediatrician whom I adore. We have been with her for over 13 years! I'll admit it, I kinda love her. She knows my children, I see her at work, she spends time talking and listening. What I realized though, is she is busy and busy doesn't have time to research the unknown. I still know I am not being a crazy parent because she has even commented at how calm I am.
With her blessings, we went to see an N.D. Our pediatrician has also sent out a referral for an allergist but and I just received a letter today from insurance that they have denied us to see the specialist because of an "Undiagnosed infections disease" and her records don't show adequate need for the allergy testing. What the? So she basically needs to need a massive attack to see a specialist? I'm a little dumbfounded. I'm going to appeal but I'm not sure how long this is going to take. Luckily the little chicken isn't actively ill right now. 'Nuff said.....tomorrow we go in for our 10th blood draw in 2 months (I might be exaggerating a bit) and hopefully we will know more after that. So basically, we sit in health system limbo hoping that no diagnosis is a good diagnosis and nothing gets "worse" It's hard to have her be "sick" but not really. She's not bed ridden but she looks horrible. All of her symptoms are ....almost something but not quite. That said, I will keep being my child's advocate and appreciate her funny self every day.
So what else is making me a parent at this time of my life? Sending out graduation announcements for my oldest right now. Talking to my next son about girls and how to treat them, why what his remark to me right now probably wasn't the most respectful to an adult and we need to watch what we say, talking to them all about grades and success, helping my 5 year become an avid reader and learn to love her cello. Everyday something new and exciting happens that makes me love motherhood and everyday, they get a day older and I think to myself.....maybe we should have just one more. I do have another stroller I want to buy......
OK so that's that for today. And with that note, Baby Gizmo is on day 12 of their stroller giveaway! today's ride is a bumbleride flite! Woohooo. Who doesn't love a supreme umbrella stroller. Check it out at www.babygizmo.com and enter to win. They are doing a giveaway every day for 30 days!
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